15,5 years with Bonnie…
It happened a year ago.
These lines were written a year ago.
Bonnie is gone.
Of course, I’m still sad now, and with tears in my eyes I accept the fact that she no longer runs lovingly with her ears back into my arms like a little child, like she would always do every time she saw me for 15 and a half years.
And that she doesn’t lick my face anymore when she does not have a stick in her mouth.
It hurts a lot now, but I choose to think about it with a feeling of love and gratitude.
Why am I working on that so hard?
Because I have no effect on the immutable.
Because it is not „incomprehensible” or „unintelligible”.
When she was born, it was also certain that she will die one day.
And me too.
In the meantime, I want to live by using my energies well.
Because the one who is gone I can not bring back, no matter what.
So I am rather grateful to have had such a great dog and been able to spend such a long time together.
In 15 and a half years, we did so many things.
These precious 15 and a half years were filled with so many beautiful memories.
I have learnt a lot from her. Most of all in our final years together, when the focus was no longer on diligent
work at the training field, but on a more quiet retirement.
When she was lying on her pillow with sparkle in her eyes waiting for me to come home and go…
…and practice what we had done in dog school 🙂
She didn’t move as she did when she was young. But it didn’t bother her at all. If she fell, she got up and went
on. I was fascinated by her love for life, her eternal enthusiasm and her attachment to me. I was a proud owner, companion, and partner of her.
I believe she would not ask me to spend the next few weeks, months to be overwhelmed by grief.
Whoever loves someone does not expect such things.
And she loved me. Very much.
As much as I loved her.
And when my time comes, I want everyone to smile!
It happened a year ago.
These lines were written a year ago.
Bonnie is gone.
Of course, I’m still sad now, and with tears in my eyes I accept the fact that she no longer runs lovingly with her ears back into my arms like a little child, like she would always do every time she saw me for 15 and a half years.
And that she doesn’t lick my face anymore when she does not have a stick in her mouth.
It hurts a lot now, but I choose to think about it with a feeling of love and gratitude.
Why am I working on that so hard?
Because I have no effect on the immutable.
Because it is not „incomprehensible” or „unintelligible”.
When she was born, it was also certain that she will die one day.
And me too.
In the meantime, I want to live by using my energies well.
Because the one who is gone I can not bring back, no matter what.
So I am rather grateful to have had such a great dog and been able to spend such a long time together.
In 15 and a half years, we did so many things.
These precious 15 and a half years were filled with so many beautiful memories.
I have learnt a lot from her. Most of all in our final years together, when the focus was no longer on diligent
work at the training field, but on a more quiet retirement.
When she was lying on her pillow with sparkle in her eyes waiting for me to come home and go…
…and practice what we had done in dog school 🙂
She didn’t move as she did when she was young. But it didn’t bother her at all. If she fell, she got up and went
on. I was fascinated by her love for life, her eternal enthusiasm and her attachment to me. I was a proud owner, companion, and partner of her.
I believe she would not ask me to spend the next few weeks, months to be overwhelmed by grief.
Whoever loves someone does not expect such things.
And she loved me. Very much.
As much as I loved her.
And when my time comes, I want everyone to smile!